End of the training road... at least for now. At least until I've recovered from this upcoming marathon.
The way my nerves have been, I can't imagine doing another. I feel like more of a fake than I've ever done. I don't know if my training has been enough and on top of that, I don't know if it's my shoes wearing out or what, but I'm so sore. My left hip is sore and I just lie in bed at night with aches in my legs and feet.
I'm completely overwhelmed. Everyone seems to have done more training than me.
I want this experience so badly because I don't know if I'll ever have another shot at it. Mostly because of how nervous I am! I can't stand this feeling!
But if I want the achievement I have no choice....
And I've completely let go of any times... whatever time I do it in, I do it in... But I'm deathly afraid of being the lone one out there that everyone is waiting for.
I won't care about how awful I look with no make up and my hair pulled back... I just wish I wasn't meeting those other runners from the message boards in that state!
I also won't care about how bad I look when I have those photos taken with my medal.
Yeah I know the medal is nothing to seasoned marathoners but this is my first and it will always be special if only for that reason....
So now I have 4 days to go.
Just wish I could look into the future and see my report from the race...
Total kms for August.. 102kms