It pains me to say it... but at least I can now drive by another runner without getting a lump in my throat.
I'm coming to terms with it.
And I know that most of this is psychological... I know that exercise actually helps osteoarthritis and there's no need to run 12kms a day.. I can just do 4 or 5 but I can't bring myself to do it. I'm scared I'll hurt more even though everything rational tells me I won't.
As it is, if I'm moving I'm fine, if I'm stationary I'm also fine... it's getting from one of those states to the other that causes me pain...
I know I'll run again, but I also know that there's no chance of another marathon this year and I'm really upset about that...
