Routine, routine...

Another 12kms down this morning.

Had to be up and started early as I've got to get Miss 15 to the train station, then drive over to mums to meet with the funeral home people. After that we're going to the nursing home to pick up his stuff.
Another high emotion day

Total kms for May, 230kms

Sad news

I didn't run yesterday.
My mum and my sister and I had spent all day and all night at the hospital with my father.
I did get home to have a shower and get changed but went straight back to the hospital without a thought of running.

My father passed away 7.15pm last night, the 29th of May.

This morning I ran 12kms because I needed to more than anything. I needed something to feel normal.
Now we're on the way back to my mums to spend the day with the family again.

I'm so glad he's at peace but he suffered so terribly the last few days.

Total kms for May 218kms

Another 10 despite....

Yesterday our family received the news that my father has a few days only to live. Even though we knew this day was coming, it was still distressing as you can imagine.

I don't really want to talk about that here in my running blog but the reason I mention it is because I wonder how it will affect my running.

I spent all of yesterday and a lot of today at the hospital and when I came home, I ran 10kms. It was only on the treadmill which seems to be norm for me of late but I don't care. It's what I like for now and better than doing nothing.

So I ran 10kms and felt a little better even though I still don't know what tomorrow will bring.

Total kms for May, 206kms

14 more down

Watched the rain coming down hard as I ran my 14kms on the treadmill again this morning.

It wasn't too bad. The last four days must have conditioned my legs well. Amazing how much your mind plays on your ability to run. If I just switch off sometimes I think I could keep on going forever.

But I'm glad to have a break tomorrow.


Total kms for May 196kms

Not into it

I've been feeling a bit rundown lately.
I think it's a combination of a few things...
1. My dad's health
2. Doing too much to quickly
3. Being obsessed with my new ipod touch and wanting to play with it all the time :)


So I've told myself I'm not going to stress about doing long runs and just stay at this level of 12kms a time until I start to feel strong again.
Everything else I don't have control over so it's no use worrying about it.
The ipod touch.. .well I have another 23 hours in the day to play with that!

Run started off hard but ended up ok... While I running and feeling good, I tell myself "tomorrow I'll run 16 again" but I wonder if that's such a good idea... See how I feel tomorrow morning but if not, there's no shame in running only 12kms again...

Total kms for May 182kms

I hate the wind

There's nothing I hate more as a runner than strong winds. I won't say I like rain (unless it's been really humid and then it rains) but I can run in it... Wind on the other hand, is like someone standing in front of you with their hand on your chest saying 'stop now'

I ran 12kms on the treadmill this morning. I was stiff and sore from yesterday for some reason and as I walked to the treadmill I said to my husband "i don't feel like doing this today"
But as I ran and just lost myself in the process it was ok and the end came quicker than I was expecting. So I was glad to make it in the end.

I feel like I'm in danger of never running outside again.

Total kms for May, 170kms

A Clayton semi long run...

I should have run outside today. The weather was pretty perfect.
But I chickened out because I'm scared of magpies.
I'm not kidding. I know my fear is insane and in the past, I've used my fear to make me run faster (not kidding about that either) but I just wasn't able to do it.

So I ran 16kms this morning but I did it on the treadmill so not sure that really counts. I watched a whole sbs movie...
I like watching those while I run because reading the text takes my mind off the running...

Anyhow, running 16 on the treadmill is better than doing nothing at all...

Total kms for May, 158kms

P.S GUESS WHO NOW OWNS AN IPOD TOUCH!!!!!!!!